i can't believe

i made it alive this quarter. why is it that every quarter i am nearly..barely...on the inch of dying.
 what made this quarter so hard was because of modeling. all the shows, shoots, with elite, gary allen, and others. i was just bookin it by word of mouth. bad timing, but

i could not have done it without you God. i am so AMAZED. and STRUCK with your comfort, your strength, the hope. i could not have finished my after effects .

barely made it alive this quarter. and the thing is, i made it with NO BULLSHIT. well, just a little bit through photography. but my Coraline? my After Effects? the quality of both work. and my maya face...could have been a little bit better if i did the hair, but ah well =/ i was on After effects the whole time since i had literally NOTHING DONE the night before it was due. i held it off to the end because of all the shows and shoots and opportunities that came out of nowhere. gotta prep myself. meditate. work out. juice the opportunity. so i put the homework aside for a little bit and...yesterday....i came out with a bang.


i am blasting music, taking every moment of this joyful energy and rejoicing with a fucking SMILE!
you have no idea how much weight is lifted off my shoulders.

a 3.5 week break before i start school i nthe summer.
moving next week. just signed the papers & parking.


anyways.
tonight. i believe i am going to Umami with michael :)
and to work i go.


this break. what break? okay at least i have a little weight lifted off my shoulders but whew. i got the Avant War to film. the underwater to film. and the showcase video to make.


lets do this break.

Storyboarding...

til 6:33 in the morning.

EIGHT pages of these:



what a night.
filming my vision in ten hours.




must.
sleep.

gnight.

Dress in the making...

i got the vision. now time to make it happen.

creating the outfit for my upcoming fashion video - Avant War, releasing in March.

trash bags & pin needles, seriously? slap on the face. WHY DIDN'T I THINK OF THIS FOR PROM! so if you're ever in a budget and need a dress, and have edgy, bold taste, pull one of these:

RAWartist Activate

the aftermath of RAWartist Hollywood's Activate @ The Key Club.
fashion show, music, art, photography, dance, etc...
a place for all raw artists to come together & share their craft.


reppin MoVintage clothing. amazing show. except for the fact that i missed Jeffrey Star. NOOOOOO.



meet roomie Suziee QQ.

meet big ass eyes. AHAHAH.

this hair by Alexandria of Remix Hair. that nest was hair sprayed up the butt. swear, i was high off Aveda. (took me 3 washes of conditioner to untangle that beast)

and that dress, I COULD NOT BREATH. the crotch line was forcing up my hole. that was definitely not for elongated people. maybe my torso is just too long,
but i sure worked it ;)

makeup, ahahahahahhahha. STILL recovering from a STYE! so i brought my own makeup and they worked off that. the Urban Decay palette. Nikki from Remix Hair saved me.

someone stole my clothes, so i had nothing to change into after the show. that's why i'm still stuck in this dress.

can't wait for more RAWartist events!
<3

Start a Trend

Panties.


guys can pull off their boxers bulging out of their pants, but for a girl, it's considered embarrassing and trashy. that's just how society works. some days, i just wake up wanting to wear certain panties & show them off vividly as a fashion accessory because they individually have this special vibe to it. usually a blissful, care-free, & quirky feel. sometimes i let my VS Pink lace pantie pop out of my shorts for a reason. but today, i wanted this bad boy to shine.

so here we are, the Outfit of the Day:

beware, those panties leave a trail of gold glitter everywhere your booty goes.

and here's to a different approach. started by an accidental push of a keyboard button and ended with:



i kinda like this graphic approach. power to the paint bucket & art history brush tools.

Hungover.

when they're drunk off liquor, i'm drunk off art.
they're spitting out vommit, i'm throwing up ideas.
& now i'm recovering from this creative hangover.
Thank God for the holiday because i am EXHAUSTED.

the difference when one lives to create, inspired, & be inspired.


so if you're wondering, last night's party consisted of...
solitude, pitch black darkness, a sound design observatory, Colombiana inspirations, listening to film scores, aggressive orchestral, pro tools tutorials, damaging my eyesight with this lack of light, "Undiscovered Desires" on repeat seventy-six times, a scramble of the storyboard visually streaming in my head, sketched & written blindly on paper. the next next fashion video. from 1:30am to 7:15am. and then i just fell asleep and woke up ...to chicken scratch...wonderful ideas...& this sick feeling.

but at least i got all the juice out!

P.S. how do you cure a creative hangover?
sleep, i'm guessing?


Love,
the Creative Drunkard.


P.S.S. what do you see when you listen to this seventy six times?

Off-ful

i just realized how off my style can be.
it's never constant.
always underlying what is bold and edgy, but not paved into a certain fashion genre.

yesterday i woke up to an imaginary Japanese culture and today...i'm inspired by the mix of New York & LA.




i wonder what tomorrow will be :)

Dangerously in Love

with Danger tape.

there's something about this tape that gets me so attached to it.
i swear, it's got some kind of magical spell that gives people an umph up in attitude and confidence.

or maybe we just have that special connection. yeah, a human and construction tape love going on.


Outfit of the Day.
i dress my to my mood. last night, i competed in a modeling contest against 12 other girls. i was a force to be reckon with and my mind was strong and ready to go. therefore, i was dangerous.
you get me? lol.

the danger feel was still leftover from last night...so i felt like wearing this:

twisted mind.

this does not feel like homework. I LOVE SCHOOL!



here's to my Photoshop Digital Media class, assignment #1:




took about 3 1/2 hours because i'm still not a master at Photoshop. i actually wanted to tweak it a bit more, but i for some odd reason, i kept getting a "Could not use move tool because the target channel is hidden." that means i should leave it as it is and get some rest for tomorrow's big day.

LA Fashion week. Project Ethos. early train departure.
i refused to sleep until i finish my vision.

to be honest, i'm a little nervous for tomorrow's critiquing. oh wait, that's going to have to be postponed until next week since i'm skipping tomorrow's class for the show. =/


but in the upside...
vision complete! :)

see what i see.

feel what i feel.


play this on repeat:


simultaneously,
silence the video's volume below. & watch this on fullscreen:




lights out. doors closed. solitude.
lay flat on the floor. hands under your head.



enjoy the art.




watch. feel. imagine. dream.

Marilyn Manson

one word: inspiring.





he is so beautiful.

Sucker Punch Fashion Video

reality is a prison. imagination is your escape. an escape to whatever is holding you back. & the power is within YOU - the power of the mind.

i wanted this to break away from traditional Youtube fashion videos consisting of outfits showcased in full-body fashion with short clips and voice overs. i wanted this to speak and tell a story as the the movie, Sucker Punch, spoke to me, that imagination IS your escape. & the power is within YOU. well, my reality isn't as harsh as a prison, locked up in chains & all, but at times when i am in need of a way out from all the darkness trying to take over me, i run to the light, i pray to God, and turn to my outlet - my imagination. art has that kind of connection and i wanted to make my next fashion video to present that. because personally, imagination IS my escape from my earthly distractions. and to have a deep connection to this film is what made me pursue a virtual fashion video in Sucker Punch kick-ass style!

Rischae, those outfits are so coooool! where did you get them?!?

Outfit #1

top: my auntie's closet
bottom: black leggings from Forever 21; colorful tights from Planet Funk
shoes: Urban Outfitters
accessories: Metro Park

Outfit #2

top: romwe.com
bottom: Karmaloop.com
boots: Steve Madden at Nordstroms
accessories: Forever 21

Outfit #3

top: army bandeau bra at Hot Topic
bottom: wing pants at Karmaloop.com
shoes: Karmaloop.com
cheetah accessory: Spirithoods.com

Outfit #4:

shredded long dress: Karmaloop.com
shorts: Karmaloop.com
vintage boots: Urban Outfitters

Outfit #5:

one piece monokini: VictoriaSecret.com
shorts: Forever 21
vintage boots: Urban Outfitters
arm accessory: a DIY from Joanns fabric store




lastly, tell me what you think after watching this virtual fashion show extravaganza. i really do want to hear your opinion, good or bad. so leave me a comment, rate it, like/dislike, you know the drill ;)




Sincerely,
Rischae

Failed

to finish editing the final day of shooting in due time.

there's SO much more to be done. little tweaks here and there.

the whole thing has got to meet my own terms of perfection.

& it's going to take more than a day.

last day...

in this makeup.




tomorrow, NO MOOOOOORE!!!!!!!

filming the last 10 shots of my sucker punch fashion video coming out tomorrow night!





YOU HAVE NO IDEA how EXHAUSTED i am. this video has been dragging me down alllll summmmmmer. two sleepless nights full of nothing but editing. and a 3o minute eating break after a 4 hour non-stop editing streak.

hooooooly. exposed to too much radiation lately. but atleast i'm almoooost there!



GOD WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO MEEEEE! lol.

Dear John Galliano,

MARRY ME & HAVE OUR IMAGINATIONS INTERTWINE & MAKE FASHION-WIZARD BABIES!



am i right or am i right?
i am so inspired right now. no words can express the feeling of this burning inspiration i've got going. i'm casting ideas just after watching this show of sensuality & i cannot wait to brainstorm the rest of this thing i got going in my head! i should've caught this earlier...but i'm catching up on my runway shenanigans.

here's two other of his masterpieces:





no one does fashion shows like John Galliano.
okay...Alexander McQueen, JCDC, Viktor & Rolf, Chanel, & Christian Dior are cool too, BUT JOHN GALLIANO FREAKIN SQUIRTS THE LIVING JIZZ OUT OF ME!

GAHHHH I AM SO AMAZED.

okay. you've read enough.
must. sleep. & dream of walking in one of his shows...& also dream of bringing my imagination into virtual fashion shows inspired by the one and only.

Fashion Night Out

with my girls.



the outfit:

delicacy with a rough edge.

a closer look.

pastel pink dress from Forever 21.
victorian boots from Urban Outfitters.


the night:

cupcakes @Sephora from Makeup Forever...delicious!


hello kitty shaped out of cans...awesome.


dresses made out of paper, cards, & stationary items.


talking to a model. dress made out of paper.
FUTURE WEDDING DRESS? ;) i think so.



wait. i forgot i'm not getting married...BAHAHAH.


stop @Godiva chocolate! free red velvet truffles? HELL YEAH!


the night ended with the traditional thai food late dinner. too bad there's no picture. we were too damn focused on the food. SO GOOD.

a great reunion well spent with the girls that met by fate.

until next time!

the process...

of bringing my imagination to life. it's a love hate relationship with after effects.
right now, we're furious. a VERY time consuming process.

so in love

with John Galliano.

i was never into menswear until i discovered THIS.



MY MIND IS GOING ASJDSKRAAZEEEEEE. HOOOOOOOLY. the look, theme, music, the model's and their act, production lights, snow, feel, the show, EVERYTHING. i cannot..believe..i JUST discovered his awesomeness. okay, aside from Alexander McQueen, he takes Runway King/Queen First Runner Up in my book. :)


damn, i know he's an ass for blurting those anti-semitic remarks about jews, but i agree with Italian Vogue editor in chief...Christian Dior is a pity without John Galliano.





P.S...the pianist makes me want to start playing again. :/ hmph.

out in the wild.

aaaannnnnd for funzies:


-monokini from victoria secret
-sliced pleather from the fabric store
-shoes from outer space

photography by hoang vu.
makeup by carissa harper.


lastly,
unleash the creature within.